change

So many things have changed I find my self slipping deeper and deeper into depression... I wish I could just snap my fingers and It would make it so that i would be snapped out of this, easier said than done I guess... Thank goodness for my angel, I don't know what I would do without my son, for he is the reason i get out of bed in the morning...

7 months old and change to come

7 months old Today Taken Jan. 25 2010

Wow So much has happened since I last posted so My baby boy is now 7 whole months old (sniff sniff) he looks like hes already a year old he is already in 12-18 month clothing. He sits up on his own Now and and actually crawled a real crawl not just his little army crawl the other day to the remote to the T.V ahahah I so new he could crawl if he really wanted to the trick is just putting something he really wants out of reach and he will crawl to it... :) (ya he is definitely all male)

I am so thankful for Colton I have been going through a very ruff time these Past few weeks. Colton's Daddy my husband decided that he doesn't want to be with me anymore and made us move out. well actually there is a whole lot more to the story but as hurt as I am I don't feel like publicizing it all of over the internet. anyway If were Close you probably all ready know the story. Its hard he was the love of my life and I didn't want this but I have learned that we can not always stop the bad things that happen to us for some reason this has happened and now I just have to have faith and put my trust in The big guy up stairs to help me through this. My little sisters have been a god send to me texting me checking on me and uplifting me. I am going to be moving in with all of them so this is a new chapter in mine and Coltons life. I am going to get things rolling to start Medical Assisting Training And I am looking forward to this.

6 month wellness check up

Momma trying to keep a little Naked boy warm befor the Doctor Comes in..
So today Little Colton Had his 6 Month Wellness Checkup Today...
And I must say he was such a brave little guy... However he broke my heart into about a mazzilion trillion and one million pieces when they began giving him his series of Vaccinations :( poor brave little Baby boy... :(


Right after his shots were taken. Getting All Doctored up with Magic Bandaids. haha


Oh my gosh and you will never believe how much he weighs now... Its crazy he is nearing 20 pounds no joke see for yourself...

So much can happen in such little time

I cant believe my Baby boy is now 6 months old he went from just this tiny tiny little peanut to this smiley,bubbly happy little ball of energy. He sits up now and hes already saying ma ma maaa ma maah and dadadadaada :)today in about 12 more hours or so he has his 6 month check up and another round of vaccines poor little guy it breaks my heart every time he gets his shots. he just looks at me with his big beautiful blue eyes that melt my heart and inside i know hes looking to me thinking mommy how can you let them hurt me like this and it just kills me. will post later to let you know how his check up went!

Way to Long of a day yesterday!!!!

So Patrick thought that it would be a real smart idea to take out our broken down car to his friends he was supposed to have been home at 10:30 and well 1:45 rolls around im in bed of course and so is the lil man and My phone rings. Its my brother in law and terror falls over my heart im scared that my husbands been in an accident or something terrible has happened. and it was bad just not as bad as I had thought Patrick was pulled over because our car is so broken that it hardly stops and it smokes like a chimney. anyhow it was impounded. This all happened on Sat. And we had to wait until he was paid yesterday to be able to get the car out me and my son have to go there to get it out with my mom and when we get there its all secretive like and they have to drive you to a different impound lot and only one person can go and uuugh it was so cold i sat there freezing with my baby boy and if I was cold then I know he probably was as well Ewww I was so mad it was taking forever and then i get a call that the car wont start so everyone and there dog is going over to this other yard and i am not aloud to go to see whats wrong and the car wont start i have to go and buy a gas can take it back to the first lot meet someone who can take it back to the other lot. it was so ridiculous needless to say the car wouldn't start there was this tow truck driver who offered to tow my car for me for real cheep if i gave him my number i had to explain to him that I am married but then he said that if he towed my car i had to give him my number actually anyway so he says hes gonna try to charge the car first so he does it an it still wont start and then. i try putting more gas into the car it still wont start so he says ok its not starting ill just bring it to where yo live I say ok. I go home he tow's the car And then when it gets dropped off here Patrick goes out to start it and what else would happen but the car starting right up I have no idea how it happened And im in trouble and being yelled at because we wasted money on a tow truck and Im like look it wouldn't start I have no idea how it just started now :( But i guess at least it did start. I just am sick of being yelled at all the time over things that are not my fault.
Anyway above is a pick of Colton having fun as always while we were waiting for the release papers to even be able to go to the impound yard in the first place....
ya what a day!!!!

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