Miss you G

I miss you Malu You were so funny Sometimes i swear i can picture your voice or you dance moves inside my head for some reason i cant stop thinking about you. I hope that you can see how good i am doing right now i hope someday i get the chance to see you and laugh with you again. it was this time 3 years ago that i would laugh with you freze with you sit in the freaking dark and you fed me and kept me warm i love you i really do really really really rest in love Malu

Standing Taller

Sometimes its as if everyone around me has changed not everyone but so many sometimes i feel as if i am standing steel. Does not a tree stand still as it grows not only do the routes grow stronger and firm the Tree grows taller. I know I am growing in so many different ways yet for some reason why do i feel its never enough. perhaps thats because i know i have farther to grow.

EveryDay I miss you

Day after Day after Day night upon night i think of you and I miss you. This Halloween was hard. I dream of a life when we are together again with our children im not sure how that would even work i guess to soe degree you are there they say i only hope that i can feel you more.

Happy Birthday Izzie We love you so much Izzabella (May2 2013)

Happy Birthday Baby girl you are truly such a little Dolly. We have spent the majority of you life calling you chunx it started out as a joke because you were so so sooooo very far from being a chunk lol you just this tiny little petite gorgeous baby graced us with your presence nearly 6 weeks early you were so tiny and small and your daddy being the prankster and joker he is thought it was so funny to call you chunx (but you we far from it) however as time would have it you grew and grew and grew and this year you decided you would show him.and our little chunk you became lol ooh you are so beautiful, so so cute and so full of life, mommy started to feel bad about calling her beautiful chunky little princess chunx or lady chunx or beauty chunx ya you have lots a nicknames but now the latest has seemed to stick. god didn't grace your beautiful little head with much hair at all but slowly yet surely it is starting to come in. i think you were born with more hair that you've actually had the past several months lol but you have this tiny little tuff of hair in the back that I can finally proudly rock a mini pony tail with

Bumps and Mountains

wow so much has changed since i last posted in 2013 i have since had 2 more beautiful children since then one of them i was able to help with the Gift of Motherhood to own of my own mother figures my dads wife who was never able to have children of her own. I =am so thankful and so grateful that I am still in her life she is such a little treasure. i am so thankful to have my little Kylee now and who was born 11 days after her daddy passed away i have not written since the time of his passing it is a an emotional subject that i am still striving to work through. We were sealed in the Temple 30 days prior to his passing and i am thankful and grateful to know that i will be with him again someday. im not going to even try to fully go into detail in regards to how much has happened these past few years i have grow i have reverted i have grown and grown (both inward and outward) lol

been away for a minute now

so i have been away for quite some time since last posting so much has happened that i am not sure where i should even begin to start. hmm perhaps i will start with how hard it was to re create the pw for this email address because it has been just that long. :)